fuck life. fuck everyone. no one should be feeling this way. i feel like an empty cup. no. people. no. fuck. i am nowhere. i am lost. damn it. i don’t even know what i’m doing. what is this. why do we have to feel this waaaaaay. you cannot trust everyone. i can forgive no moooore. fuck it. i don’t know what i’m doing, i’m just in tears. you say i’m a coward but wtf, this is how i feel. everything seems to be getting mixed up and i don’t know where to place myself.
forgive me, i am but an empty shell.
the act has been done, you can never undo them. the words are uttered, you cannot retract them. why, in the most innocent part of the phrase, did you do that?
i don’t know. i’m bent out of my shape now. i just cannot blame everyone around me. i don’t know, i cannot censure my friends. i cannot just throw my sadness to them because they aren’t blameworthy. i blame myself. whyy. i am worthless and will always be. you cannot question that.
why do you always misjudge me? everyone would have blamed me for acting like this because you tell them different stories. oh god, please grow up. i don’t understand why you are acting that way. are you jealous or are you not? with situations getting worse, i cannot just simply forgive you. wtf is wrong with you, really? every stories i hear from legit persons make me more mad about you everyday. what have you done with your life? don’t worry. if the time comes - when the water will be too hot, i would not hesitate to let you experience the fury of my vengeance. and if you cannot keep your mouth shut, i’m gonna throw your god damn face and burn the hell out of it. you haven’t seen the real me when i’m angry, have you?
sorry for this rant. there’s just something that popped in my head and i cannot just simply ignore it, i just have to let it out - since it’s timely. sorry, my thoughts are nowhere to be found. i think i am lost. what i am currently thinking of is i am in rage. like right now.
yes you, i am writing this for you.
ps: this would not hurt you much if you’re guilty. that’s just a simple logic, i hope you understand. and if you read this with your heart beating fast, i would not care less.
I don’t know what’s going on, babe. Lately, I have just realized that I began to stare blankly at an empty wall - without any valid reason at all. Feels like I’m being sandwiched and wth am I even saying. Sorry. :/
Yes, I am always misjudged because of what I blog. Yes, I am always misjudged because of the way I put my feelings when I write. Yes, I am always misjudged even as a person. Who would care anyways?
I was just so disappointed of how you reacted. This is what society acts like nowadays. You blog, they judge. Wtf is wrong with you? No, I don’t want to make a new blog because of you. No, I won’t change because of you. Yes, this is my life and you cannot change me the way you wanted me to be. Who are you in the first place even? Why not try to change yourself then?
Didn’t you know people are almost getting annoyed of you? Didn’t you know they are already tired of you? FUCK THAT SHIT IT’S A REAL TALK. Just because everyone is with you, they like you? Didn’t you know how hypocrisy works? Didn’t you know everything is well printed? Got that? You’d like to know more? Fuck off. You aren’t even worth an explanation. GET YOUR SHIT UP.
Before anything else, I would just like to thank you for visiting my blog. Aren’t you my number 1 fan? That’d be cool if you are. And if you think you can see this, or you feel that this post is for you, I WOULD NOT CARE. Have I shot bulls eye your ego? I like that shit.